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Day 40: Corrected

I still can't believe that the 40th day falls on Palm Sunday. I used to think the 40th day is Easter.

Oh well, I have to say I loved this weekend. I was able to spend it with some friends and family. How I wish all weekends are like this.
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Day 39: Enjoy

T'was a long day. PS Team went to Manila Ocean Park and at the same time watch the Aliwan Festival. We also got the chance to pass by Luneta and watch couples relaxing in each others arms while watching the graceful movement of the dancing fountain. Our culture, I daresay, is so rich and diverse. It makes me wonder why some of us tend to consider our culture of lower level. It's not unusual to see Filipinos opting the Western culture, thinking that the Filipino tradition is quite "old-fashioned". It's sad isn't it?
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Day 38: Twist of Fate

Ti's funny how fate sometimes play with you. Aargh! I felt so deprived before... now I'm quite torn.
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Day 37: With His Help

We can't control everything... and sometimes, the only thing we can do is pray.
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Day 36: Huh?

It's day thirty six already in my count. But this coming Sunday is not yet Easter Sunday... it's merely Palm Sunday. Shouldn't be the 40th day be on Easter? Watda? I'm still enjoying my blogs.
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Day 35: Question Mark

I wonder what's in store for me tomorrow, the next day, next week, next month, next year...

We never know what the future holds. All I know is that we always have to prepare ourselves.

No one can stop time. Tomorrow is inevitable. Even if we cherish all things happening now, there would still be a risk that they will end at one point.

Every single day, we come across people: some become our friends, others remain strangers. They come into our lives for a reason, a reason that unravels itself at the right time.

Occasionally, we find ourselves facing circumstances that test our stability... circumstances that shake our grounds... circumstances that attempt to pull us down... I guess they're right when they said that shit happens.

It's so hard not to be worried about the future. But come to think of it: each day offers a unique gift to all of us... so why fret?
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Day 34: The Wall

I don't put up walls around my heart to keep people out; but to see who will fight to break thru them.
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Day 33: Mwah Mwah Kisses

Every since I was young, my parents fondly give them to me... I remember myself calling my mom when she's in school (my mom's a teacher), asking her if I could give me some kisses when she gets home. I would do the same with my dad and yes, he would give me kisses too. Several years have passed and I still love kisses... Hershey's you're a genius!
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Day 32: Fervent Wish

should I stare at the skies and wait for a shooting star?

should I toss my lucky coin in the deepest well?

Daddy God, I know You listen to my prayers... and I know You know and want the best for me... Hence... Thy will be done.
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Day 31: No Exceptions...

Nobody's perfect! No, not you, not me...

No one is perfect
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Day 30: Mwah

I got exactly 100 kisses from Andy and it really touched my heart. Just imagine him kissing my cheeks and counting at the same time... it must have been a chore for a five year old...

but he didn't mind.

so sweet of him :)
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Day 29: Uhh.... Waaaaaah!

I really need to do something with my memory... seriously!
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Day 27: Expecto Patronum!

To stress that sucks the energy out of me... Expecto Patronum! To depression that sucks the happiness out of me... Expecto Patronum! To paranoia that sucks my security... Expecto Patronum! To my family and friends who are always there for me... Accio!
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Day 26: It's not the End

Never lose hope. Just continue praying. and believe.
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Day 25: Testing Integrity

Yes, I missed a day. :(

Shucks I missed a day.

So yes that means I have to suffer the consequences of being forgetful.

But no, that doesn't mean I'm gonna stop already. No, that's just not right. Just like in real life, my life doesn't end whenever I commit a mistake... I just have to continue and move on with my life.
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Day 23: Hugs and Kisses

Nothing compares to the comfort given to me by a single hug. In each embrace, I find peace, security and comfort. I feel so much loved. :)
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Day 22: Everyone's Pen Pal?

I've been checking mails since morning. I'm still not finished checking them all. Oh well, there's still tomorrow. ;-p
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Day 21: Back To Reality

I'm reporting back to work tomorrow... Will be waking up early again... will be attending series of meetings once more... because of the current initiative of the Process Team, I'm anticipating a series of overtimes. But thankfully, Raisha's OK. And no, she no longer has to be confined. I'm grateful for my six day vacation. Granted that I wasn't able to go to Samar as planned, but at least I was able to spend time with my kids, my niece and my mom. I can't wait to do this again :)
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Day 20: Rest

Been sleeping for most part of this day. It feels so good to finally catch up on some zzzzz... it's been a while since I did this, so my head is aching a bit now. And I have an annoying case of stiff neck. But nevertheless, I was able to sleep and rest... so I'm not complaining.
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Day 19: My Only Wish

It breaks my heart seeing Raisha cry in pain... complaining how her head hurts so much and how her throat starts to hurt as well... Please Lord, make her well. Bring back her own strength. Make her healthy again.
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Day 18: True Treasure

Whenever asked what a treasure is, some of you may think about tangible items like money, properties, etc.

Today, I realized that health is a treasure that we should also hold dear.

Raisha's cough is almost a month old... actually it's already acute pneumonia. A couple of weeks ago, I spent about PhP2,000 for her medications.

Today, I spent roughly about PhP4,500.00. Then I also needed to buy a nebulizer amounting to PhP 3,300. So for Raisha alone, I spent PhP 7K. But then I realized I, myself, am out of medications... so there goes my PhP 2K... So yes, more than 9K went down the drain today.

And alas, both our medications are not yet over. Bummer!

But wait, there's more...

Raisha's pediatrician also said that if her cough doesn't go away, she'll have to be admitted to the hospital anytime next week.

I know Raisha will soon get well... hopefully before we reach PhP20K worth of medications.
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Day 17: Words

Use and misuse of words could either bring tears or laughter to others.
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Day 16: Innocence

Watching how kids have fun never fail to warm my heart. Their laughters are music to my ears.

It's inspiring how they find joy in the simplest of things.

They may have some superficial fears, but it's so easy for them to trust people. And this trust help them develop confidence.

Who said we adults know everything? Yes, compared to children, we may know more... but alas, some of us seemed to have already forgotten the most important things we learned when we were still kids.
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Day 15: Quick Stops

This has been a busy day... but I don't mind. After all, I'll be enjoying almost a week of R&R.

I almost thought that this day would not end... countless meetings... deliverables to be rushed and reviewed... I had to rush in MCK, then back in CG, then Eastwood... phew!

Sometimes, it's so hard to believe how we could fit several commitments in a day. But well, just like what they say... when there's a will, the universe will conspire to help you find a way.
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Day 14: Liberation

to be free makes me feel like I'm flying.
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Day 13: Surrender?

Should I surrender and succumb to defeat... and accept that in the end, things will not turn out the way I want it to be?

They say that patience is the key that will unlock my long awaited bliss. I don't know. Maybe patience isn't enough after all.

For days, I found myself in front of flickering candles... tears of wax slowly dripping as my heart start to sink. I'm close to dropping on my knees. But then I realize that: No, I shouldn't.
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Day 12: Helpless

Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you’ll realize in the end it’s not enough. There would still be some flaws and some misses. In some occasions, you’ll find yourself helpless and without any control.

Indeed, life can be so unfair at some point... sarap batukan. Hahaha!
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Day 11: Moving Up

Andy had his moving up program awhile ago. It made me realize that my baby boy is starting to grow to a young man... though he still a bit naughty.

As we took his certificate on the stage, I realized that our family continues to move on in the hope that one day, we'll be completely healed from the memories of the past
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Day 10 Missing...

An extended period without the company of someone

An extended period not doing something you love...

It makes you experience the feeling of missing, no matter how hard you try to ignore it
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Day 09: A Bientot Cebu

This is my second visit to Cebu... and seriously, I can't wait for the third. :) And yes, I have a planned third visit. But hopefully time will come, I will be able to bring my kids here.

I was able to catch a glimpse of some of their scenic spots last night... they're breath-taking!
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Day 08: Humility and Aid

Sometimes, we just have to face the fact that there are some things that we can't do by ourselves...

No matter how we try to do things on our own, we'll still need someone's assistance in the end.
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Day 07: The Day of Rest

It's been a week since Lent 2011 started.

This Tuesday will be a very busy Tuesday. I have a meeting starting at 9. Even my lunch wasn't spared, as I'm going to have a business lunch. After lunch will be several meetings again until 7pm.

And as I look at the adjacent conflicting schedules... I realized that more than anything else. What I badly long for is more time.

I need more time... I need spaces in between scheduled meetings... cause I'm almost out of breath.

...On the seventh day, The Lord has rested... so why shouldn't we?
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Day 06: The Challenge

Pack as light as possible
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Day 05 Lessons

It's hard to unteach what has already been taught... but sometimes, it really needs to be done.
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Day 04: The Chauvinist Piglets

Boys can just be so mean to girls.

That's why I'm teaching Raisha the skill of being assertive. I know it'll come in handy ;)
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Day 03: The Unreachable P

I worry too much... I overanalyze too much. It's probably because of always wanting everything to be perfect.

Our imperfect minds always yearn for perfection. But no matter what, that aint gonna happen.
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Day 02: Rising from A Fall

I fell down the stairs a while ago... it was a nasty fall.

But then, after that fall, I told myself that I had to stand up. I mean, the longer I stayed there on the floor, the longer I would look stupid... Just like in living this life. ;-p
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Day 01: Everything has a beginning...

As for me, I started this day with a question in mind... "What were I thinking? Seriously!"


THREE sacrifices? Seriously!


For this year, I vowed to observe three sacrifices... and yes, this is coming from a girl who gave up on her singular 2010 Lenten sacrifice (of not eating sweets) after a week.


Nevertheless, I vow to do the following this Lenten season:
1. Pray the rosary and novena
2. Make someone else's day, by letting that person feel how special s/he was
3. Reflect and publicize those reflections through this blog.


Those sacrifices? They just came in my mind. And my conscience didn't want me to commit to just one... she wanted me to commit to three.


At that moment, I secretly wished that next time, my conscience would just stick to suggesting what soap brand I should use... just like how it's seen on TV. But then again, I remembered... she IS MY conscience. I'm not going to keep quiet after convincing others to change their soap brands.


So here I am... starting to begin with my third sacrifice, still asking myself what were I thinking... but then finding myself excited as I begin this series of self-reflections.


I know that this is going to be a tough one. After all, my control is limited.


But then again, whatever has been begun, needs to be finished...


And there goes my reflection number one :)
 
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